the rest is wandering
through streams of consciousness
letting yourself get lost begetting loss after waves of unendurable disaster
before you can light the lamp again
after the whalekill, the fall, the casting out, the loss of heaven’s seat
milton’s on my mind
but this is the story of a complicated man
but this story is a story of a whale, not a man
it’s heavensent
it’s the white whale it’s dreamland it’s ghosts
it’s up into the crow’s nest
it’s a story in a story
it’s a lighted lamp
it’s whalesong upon the face of the waters
it’s leviathan looming in the deep